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27 July 2005 @ 11:20 am
i'm so tired...  
of not connecting authentically...
of being ashamed of my crunchy-side...
of staying emotionally closed most of the time...
of living life at half-volume...
of the heartache and yearning for the mountains...
of the same ol' shit...
of sacrificing my queerness for my 'headness** or viceversa...
of just dreaming of a co-op'ed community...
of living so far from the land...


** - 'headness = deadheadness

/dill on his bi-annual quest, lighting out...
 
 
Current Mood: yearning...
Current Music: mississippi half-step uptown toodleoo
 
 
 
worldwalkerdc on July 27th, 2005 09:04 am (UTC)
You aren't alone...

The mountains are spiritually and emotionally nurturing for me, an experience I long for more and more often. Being full of your feelings and vision and passion can sometimes create a sense of lonliness...I think that's our heart's way of helping us get really clear about what we need and what feeds us.

Enjoy your quest, and know you have fellow adventurers all around you.