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14 December 2005 @ 09:05 am
umd was awesome. met just about everyone in the program who is not out of the country researching right now. i'm not so in love with it and blindsided that i'm going to rest all of my hopes on that school...but... i really like the advisors that i met, liked the class i sat in on, liked the graduate students who i met and grabbed dinner with after class.

nice leftist program. but not so leftist that it skews the history being written. that's a good thing. umd application is due tomorrow.

to do today:
- umd online application
- tailor statement of purpose
- pick up last rec letters
- go to class for presentation (bleh)
- read some of the four books i bought yesterday on my end-o-semester-book-buying-binge

I bought:

Spoken Here: Travels Among Threatened Languages by Mark Abley

Growing Old in El Barrio by Judith Noemi Freidenberg

Ruling America: A History of Wealth and Power in a Democracy by Steve Fraser and Gary Gerstle

Silence on the Mountain: Stories of Terror, Betrayal and Forgetting in Guatemala by Daniel Wilkinson

happy reading to me, happy reading to me, happy reading dear dillon, happy reading to me.
Current Mood: sleepy.
Current Music: my dog barking.
still sometimes self-knowledge paired with humility, paired with patience and trust could avail something, right?

01) What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Hmm... I dunno... had my first Sir... lost my first Sir... applied to graduate school... went to San Francisco...

02) Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Most people quit smoking for New Years'...but last NYE I started smoking again. I think I'll just stay in today, thanks...

03) Did anyone close to you give birth?
There are two ways to interpret this--figurative and literal. No I didn't witness any live births. Yes, my good friend and confidante Frank had a baby vis a vis his wife, Jen.

04) Did anyone close to you die?
No...but a few of my friends wanted to...

05) What countries did you visit?
US; Cherokee Nation of North Carolina;

06) What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
A graduate program and funding. Travel abroad.

07) What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May 24th: meeting Becca; June 20something: Transpride in SF; I'm going to remember many moments, but I'm not big into dates... OH, and June 19: my anniversary and the day/night I wrecked my car!!!

08) What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Hmm... I dunno... showing up for people even when I'd rather keep to myself... Not running away from relationships with people. Facing tough conversations. Learning how to be more true to myself.

09) What was your biggest failure?
I'm not really into this question.

10) Did you suffer illness or injury?
Only the one I deal with day in/day out... PLUS I got a number of paper cuts at work.

11) What was the best thing you bought?
A plane ticket to San Francisco.

12) Whose behavior merited celebration?
Uh...a lot of peoples'... I try to keep really impressive, healthy people in my life. Everyone I know has done something worth celebrating. If you're reading this, I'm sure I'm of you and something you've done.

13) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own behavior, sometimes. Some folks at school. Mr. Arbusto II. Many politicians, classmates, etc. Most disappointing quote ever: "But so what if a few indigenous people die? Who cares?" from same classmate, "No one really cares about the UN!!!"

14) Where did most of your money go?
Hmmm...food...books...travel... ??

15) What did you get excited about?
Spirituality. Girls. Boys. Work. Graduate School. Latin America. Spanish. Vegan Food. Running. Crushes.

16) What songs will always remind you of 2005?
*balk* I have no effing idea.

17) Compared to this time last year, are you:
A) happier or sadder? Happier & sadder, but definitely more real.
B) thinner or fatter? Thinner.
C) richer or poorer? Richer, but only cos I work my ass off. For real, see question 17B: I have no ass. haha.

18) What do you wish you'd done more of? Spontaneous anything.

19) What do you wish you'd done less of? Stressing, complaining.

20) How will you be spending Christmas? With my family in Fairfax, VA; working; fussing with my family; cooking vegan holiday cookies; obsessing about graduate school; reading lots; making good on 2 "dates" I've set up with friends (Amphora's and Sunflower/Jammin' Java)

22) Did you fall in love in 2005? Yep, a couple of times. And I actually told one of them & had a relationship, with communication and all...

23) How many one-night stands? It's been a pretty dry year for me... It's odd... I haven't been that interested... I mean, I'm interested in acquisition and talking about sex and jerking off... but... not that many one night stands...

24) What was your favorite TV program? Law & Order. Simpsons. This hasn't really changed.

25) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate anyone.

26) What was the best book you read? I'll tell you the best book I've read this month, ok? Zinn's Politics of History; Eileen Findlay's Imposing Decency; Fight Club; Spoken Here (currently reading this)

27) What was your greatest musical discovery?
A community hardcore straight-edge kids.

28) What did you want and got?
Another year clean (and dirty). A trip to Cherokee. A trip to SF. Activism. A girlfriend.

30) What was your favorite film of this year?
??? I liked Kinsey. And I liked "Left Turn," a doc on Alix Olsen (sp?)... The Full Monty.

31) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I had a party at a friends' house that was small and sad cos no one was really into being there. A few people showed up, but many folks wanted to just get drunk and we didn't have alcohol, we just had a vegan cake (that my awesomely underappreciated girlfriend-at-the-time baked)... I spent time with my family. I might've worked. It was really very uneventful.

32) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Uh...what-ifs aren't very helpful for me... Ummm... fewer cigarettes... more time... more sex...

33) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
I don't really know. I would say pragmatic. I try to dress to what suits my needs/personality/mood & what suits the situation. Depends. I mean, I'm faggy, but... really... "personal fashion concept"-- what the eff?

34) What kept you sane?
HP, school, Megano, music, dancing, humility, perspective;

35) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hillary Duff & Lindsay Lohan. I know, I know... I liked a lot of boys, too, I just can't think of any off the top of my head...

36) What political issue stirred you the most?
As a young historian-in-training, I am constantly uncovering political issues of the past that piss me off AND constantly discovering political issues of the present to piss me off...

37) Who did you miss?
Pamela Kay, folks @ App State, myself, my sister, my Baby Dyke;

38) Who were the best new people you met? In order of appearance:
Uh... I met a lot of new people in 2005. All of you rock.

39) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
Hmm... If I do esteemable things, I will have self-esteem. Ownership/Boundaries (ie: "this is mine" and "that is not")

40) Quote a song lyric/poem that sums up your year:
No way. Requires way too much thought and I wouldn't be happy with the answer. It's still only December 15th. I've got 16 more days for my year to change & then where would my lyric choice be...?? (In the toilet, that's the answer)
Current Mood: caffeinated for no good reason
Current Music: npr in the background, duh.