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30 November 2005 @ 08:06 pm
i have a dangerous crush. the kind where the only way to put anything out is to put myself waaaaaay out there. bah. what to do...?

further information:
1. crush may or may not be reciprocated.
2. crush may or may not know of their crush status.
3. disclosure of crush may or may not totally eff up our friendship.
4. crush may or may not be of the romantic nature, as opposed to that of the friendship ("oooh... you're so cooooool...") nature
5. crush may or may not be reading this entry.
30 November 2005 @ 11:13 pm
one of my profs who is writing a recommendation for me (that is due in 47 minutes) hasn't let me know whether or not she wrote it today, hell, or even remembered that she was supposed to. i wrote her an email asking her to please let me know once she'd written and submitted it, so that i could sleep in peace...and... it's 11:13 and i'd like to sleep soon... bleh... oh well, everything else is submitted and it's out of my hands. goddamn, i hope she gets it done. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whew. i feel better. (ok, not really, but i did for the few seconds that i was smashing down keyboard letters)

__now for the more interesting part of the post__

ok, to speak to some concerns/issues/input raised by folks who responded to my previous crush-post:

c: i know that i have way too many crushes. i think they're fun. if i could grow balls, i would, but i don't think it would help me much in the telling of this person. to tell you the truth, i'm not sure how speaking up would affect the friendship - that's one of those things that's impossible to figure out sans disclosure. bah. i feel like it could really fuck up the friendship, potentially, especially if this person is weirded out by the crush. cos that's possible. the friendship is new but important. i'm sure this whole crush business is something we'll talk about tomorrow night when ransom is exchanged.

m: yeah, subliminally or maybe even directly, i do want my crush to know and, yes, even better if this crush "figures it out". and, part deux for m: does a passive warning via lj count as "fair warning"? i'm not so sure.

e: very cute. especially if you insert spacing like so (ohpl eased ear godle tit beme) hah!


ps: this is quite possibly the oddest lj entry i've ever written.
Current Mood: anxiousball of nerves
Current Music: npr in the background