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boiswillbebois
06 March 2005 @ 07:02 pm
*just a serene smile*

gifts of emotional/spiritual growth...

just a few minutes ago at work, i had a particularly frustrating experience of wanting to help a customer - really not going above and beyond, just doing store protocol - but i couldn't leave my register to go and get the item for the woman who needed it. my "bagger" refused to go get the item - outright saying "no" and i thought he was just joking, but he wasn't. he was joking in a passive-agressive sense - he was not going to get the item. i end up having to call a floor supervisor to go get the item...

i was so self-righteously frustrated when the guy who didn't want to get the item yelled at me for asking him to get the item when a) it is his job to assist the cashier and the customer and to get the item was his job description, verbatim and b) i didn't understand in the first place that he wasn't joking. he has no right to make me feel small.

and then, i become angry with him and carry this ickiness around for a few minutes before trying to let it go and then go on break. on break, now, i'm getting centered and realizing that it doesn't matter what his deal is - my deal is wanting to do the best job possible and living a "happy, joyous, free" life... so, i won't hold onto his stuff. neither will i go and apologize to him or try to open a discussion with him about it - i didn't do anything wrong, there's nothing to apologize for, especially since he tends to be a grumpy person at work, anyway...

so, instead, i'll breathe and be glad that i'm not so miserable. and be proud of my work ethic and the families (leather, biological, queer, recovery) that instilled that sense of work ethic and integrity.

/d. breathing...
 
 
Current Mood: much better now...
Current Music: some terrible classical composition...